It has been awhile...

I got on here tonight to write something, anything, because it has been too long since my last blog. Thank you Diane for reminding me that I have been absent, busy, consumed, and just drawing a blank. Much has gone on these last few months. I have traveled many miles, to Boston, Dallas, Colorado, Seattle (quite a few times), and soon Minneapolis. I have officially entered a relationship, which has been on the works for what some could say has been seven years (since we met), some might say for a year and a half (since we have been back in touch), and others would just count it as over two months (when the official relationship status began)!

My silence has had me thinking. Thinking about life, thinking about turning 30 in less than a month, and mostly thinking about what it is to be in a relationship. I have avoided them for many, many, many years. I have lost much in the past and been hurt more than my heart would like to confess, but my heart still desires to love and to be loved. So, here I am standing in the midst of togetherness and watching it unfold.

I am learning I am more selfish then I would like to think I am. I am learning sometimes you don't have to have all of the answers at once. I am learning I like to have all of the answers at once! I am learning how to hold on and how to let go. I am learning I was scared of relationships for reasons I am no longer scared of, but I am now scared of relationships for reasons I never thought of! I am learning that being in a relationship is hard at times and easy at others. I am learning that unspoken expectations or communication can bring a lot of trouble! I am learning how much I enjoy having an other person in my life. I am learning I have a lot more to learn and it isn't as scary as it is exciting.